It's really hard to keep my positive vibes flowing when life gets so shitty. Let me rephrase that, life isn't shitty, but shitty stuff has been happening. Should I rehash it online? I don't want to hurt feelings or offend anyone, so I'll just be vague and annoying about super person stuff that's not my business to tell.
My younger sister and I had a fight, she's moving out. Hopefully we make up, but she left because stuff was getting bad on her end and my house wasn't being loved the way it should have been. I couldn't have done anything that would have made me feel good. Let her stay, my house be abused, and I would be a floor mat that people walked all over; or, I could ask her to leave and my family would be a tiffed at me, and she and I wouldn't talk. I chose to do what was best for my little immediate family and ask her to leave. Easter's going to be awkward. Lol. It's really not funny, but if I don't laugh, I get sad.
I have had horrible insomnia over all this, but thankfully I talked to my mom and I feel better. While she's not going to get involved or badmouth my sister (and I don't want her bad-mouthed), I know that she understands where I'm coming from, and she doesn't think I did anything that I didn't think was right.. I just feel bad that my parents' empty home is now stuffed full of people and their bills are going to go up. I know they've loved having the house to themselves, so it's going to be an adjustment for everyone.
AH, and then some petty part of me is glad to have my house back to my little family. I get to fix damaged stuff (no biggie), paint walls, and get the house ready for when we move home. Plus, we want to get pregnant soon-ish, so I want to work on getting baby stuff arranged in the nursery for future baby B.
Thankfully only a few people know about this blog, so I can vent, get it off my chest, and not have rumors spread about my family. Aye yi yi.
Happy thoughts, happy thoughts.
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