I am so frustrated, but also so happy. Yesterday Michael and I had a great time celebrating our anniversary by going out to dinner, grabbing ice cream and walking along a river trail, and driving through the valley, looking at all of the beautiful vineyards and wineries. We also stopped off by our old high school and checked out the mural I helped make, that was up on the wall. Yeah ceramics club! Lol. It was glorious to do all of this alone with Michael <3 And even better, my stupid period hasn't shown up yet!
Downside: I've now had two days where I had a negative pregnancy test! If my period is going to start and I'm not pregnant, then just start already so I can get back to trying to conceive. It's so discouraging to look down and see that little empty box that should have a plus sign. BLAH. I was hoping I would wake up and have a positive test, so I could share it with Michael and we could relish in the news all day. If I am pregnant and I find out later in the week, he won't be here and I'll have to tell him over the phone :( Stupid work. Why can't we just have money and never work? Lazy woman's dream over here.
In all honestly, I feel pregnant. But maybe it's just extended PMS? Maybe I just want it so badly that I'm having these symptoms? Either way, I guess I'll take a break from testing, because it's just bumming me out. (Remember to tell that to 5:00 am-Jessica tomorrow because I'm sure her psycho ass will test anyways and break normal-time Jessica's heart).
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